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Hi there! So I am currently in an eating disorder (more specifically psychosomatic) clinic in Slovakia, Pezinok and I am having an extremely tough time motivating myself to get better. Due to my condition (anorexia, or borderline personality disorder as I might be diagnosedI I have almost no friends. I avoid people despite the fact that I, in fact, enjoy the company of people. After a terrible day yesterday when I had almost nothing to do, I decided that perhaps through sharing my story I will get the emotions out, maybe 'meet' some new online friends, help others through my words and shared experiences... I mean, who knows, right? There is no harm in trying. So here I am. This is me. My name is Sonia, I am 32 years old and I have been suffering with Anorexia most of my life. I hit rock bottom in September 2019 when I weighed 29 kilos and when I could barely walk. In this condition I seeked out medical attention and was hospitalized in an internal medicine metabolic unit. This hospitalization lasted all of 15 hours and I was released to home care. I seriously could barely walk. My mom was scared, I was scared... We didn't want me to go home really, because I was too sick. However, the doctor there said that it is far more dangerous for me to stay in the hospital, where I may catch a resistant type of bacteria. It very well could be the case and I would seriously jeopardize my health even more. So we called the eating disorder clinic in Slovakia, but were told that my BMI is too low and I cannot be admitted. There is only one clinic in Slovakia. We tried the Czech Republic as well, but we were told the same thing- I was simply too skinny and too big of a risk. Thus began my search for medical care elsewhere. I went to Vienna by myself. I went to AKH, a general hospital, where they had an eating disorder clinic. I was told that due to my weight I cannot be admitted. So I had to go home. I came back one week later though. This time I was told that my German isn't good enough for a ward that requires group therapy, for example. So I had to go home again. I returned for the third time, but this time I had an appointment with the head of the eating disorder clinic, professor Berger. He decided that I can come to the clinic, but first I have to go to a psychiatric ICU in order to get my BMI to 12.5. Great! Except first I had to get my insurance company to pay for the stay. Long story short (I will definitely write about that later) one and a half month later, I got my approval and on my BIRTHDAY (November 28th) I was admitted to the ICU. Another long story short ( I will ALSO write a post about this later) I stayed in Vienna for 3 months and was finally released to home care on March 12th 2020. On the 13th, Slovakia closed all its borders due to the Coronavirus, or COVID-19, pandemic. I was no longer able to access post-hospitalization care with my Austrian therapist and professor Berger. Suddenly I was left to care for myself alone. I didn't handle that well and after 2 months at home I was re-hospitalized in the Eating Disorder Clinic in Slovakia. This time my weight was eligible for admittance. I weighed 35 kilos. So here I am. In Pezinok getting treated for my Anorexia. This is my journey, this is my story. I am glad that you are here and that I get to share it with you! Welcome